Much on my mind!

I'm not even sure where to start! My brain is full of stuff and not all of is useful! Ok most of it is not useful! Its been about 10 months since my respect for a fellow family member left.To this day I wish I knew what I did, but alas I'm clueless! Last time I blogged was hard for me. My boys were going through a hard patch about C. He had just had twin boys and my sweet angels didn't understand why he would do that when he didn't want them. Well naturally I wanted to commit a crime against him but I restrained ha! I so know that was the best thing he ever did for them was to sign them over but it kills my heart that they have to feel saddness about this he is not worthy of their tears! I can only pray that they learn from this and never do it to their children! They have such a great example now so I doubt they will! My boys do stress me out often, but boy am I crazy about them! I know this post is all over the place but it really suits my mind...all over! I often wonder why Don is so crazy about me ha! Probably because he doesn't know what goes on in my head!