Friday, January 18, 2013

Weight Loss

Lets face it, losing weight sucks ass! Its the hardest thing I have ever had to do, even get a divorce lol! I have struggles since I had Parker, so ya almost 16 years! I have lost some, gained some, but mostly stayed the damn same! For me the hardest thing was thinking I could do it. I have failed at SO many things, that every time I failed at a diet I would say "your a failure, your going to be fat forever". I honestly believed I would be! That makes me feel awful! I always feel like a failure about something, my mothering skills, my wifey skills and especially my weight. But guess what? Im NOT a failure! Do you know how hard it is to believe that? I have Don telling me all the time how beautiful I am, how much he believes in and he knows I can do it, and you know what? I CAN! I'm down 29 pounds so far! I have about 50 more to go, but who cares lol I'm down 29! It has been so very difficult. I enjoy water so that part is easy, I am not a fan of exercising at all! My weakness is cereal, mac and cheese and diet pepsi. Salad is ok, but mac n cheese is so much better ha! I have given up so many times, quit like the quiter I was, not anymore! Even now, I still slip and eat something I shouldnt and guess what I do? I chalk it up to normal human behavior and I jump right back in! Here is a pic of me before and one around Christmas, I have since lost 14 pounds!!
STAY STRONG! You can DO IT!!

3 comments:

Heather said...

And Don has lost 12!!

Joyce said...

I am so glad I read that today. I needed it. I make a slip and then I slip all day and say I will start again tomorrow. But sometimes tomorrow doesn't come...and I wait for another tomorrow which doesn't come. Pretty soon I have quit. You are inspiring me. Especially when you said that you write it up to natural... slipping isn't the end of the world. I can still do this! Thanks Heather! I love you!!!!

Heather said...

Joyce, you CAN do it! I know you can, you just have to believe that you can! I love you!!