My heart!

How can your heart be so filled with joy and also filled with such saddness? Let me explain. I started a journey 20 months ago with Lois. We spent an entire month together in Spokane and 5 days a week ever since. I have worked every holiday except Christmas day, sick or not sick. I am pretty sure I know everything about her, and she with me. I share everything with her, even female problems and bowel issues haha! She has never once ever said "why me" or felt sorry for herself, that is just not her. She is strong and I admire her more than she will ever know! Our days are spent visiting, laughing, talking, some crying and just relaxing. And now she is getting a new kidney and I am over the moon excited. She is going to start life, live without doing dialysis everyday. Then there is me who will miss her SO much. It will be so weird not spending everyday with her. They have made me a part of their family and trust me with everything they have. I am so excited to be able to be there on her big day, when her life will forever change.