Much on my mind!

I'm not even sure where to start! My brain is full of stuff and not all of is useful! Ok most of it is not useful! Its been about 10 months since my respect for a fellow family member left.To this day I wish I knew what I did, but alas I'm clueless! Last time I blogged was hard for me. My boys were going through a hard patch about C. He had just had twin boys and my sweet angels didn't understand why he would do that when he didn't want them. Well naturally I wanted to commit a crime against him but I restrained ha! I so know that was the best thing he ever did for them was to sign them over but it kills my heart that they have to feel saddness about this he is not worthy of their tears! I can only pray that they learn from this and never do it to their children! They have such a great example now so I doubt they will! My boys do stress me out often, but boy am I crazy about them! I know this post is all over the place but it really suits my mind...all over! I often wonder why Don is so crazy about me ha! Probably because he doesn't know what goes on in my head!

Holy Longtime!!

Ok, so it has been FOREVER since I updated!! I dont even know where to begin! Today was the first day of school. I had 3 happy boys, one freshman not so happy ha!I cant believe I have a freshman in highschool! Where did the time go? I remember him as a baby who always laughed and smiled and now he is this man! Makes me a little sad if Im being honest! Its been a great summer! Not a whole lot of fighting with the boys! Yesterday was the first day I actually said "I cant wait for school" so I would say SUCCESS!! We went camping on the west side, went to the pool a bunch had family and friends over and a rodeo and fair! This weekend is Silverwood in Idaho with a hotel, we SOO cant wait for that! Work is going good! Right now we are on Season 8 of Friends, lol its what we do when were done with words and facebook! We pretty much rock! Don got promoted so he is the Electrical Supervisor, he is so fantastic! Patrick started 7th, Joshua started 2nd and Jared is in 1st. This summer we hydro-seeded half the yard, we are doing the other half next month. LOVE having green grass, so pretty!! This year our goal is to get the outside done, minus the siding of course, but hopefully my wrap around porch :) The weeds KILL us out here! Don is constantly using the tractor to get the weeds up in the dirt bike track, but they are taking over! Its been a busy year! Will write more soon!!

Thanksgiving!

Thanksgiving is not my fav holiday, never has been! Not a fan of the food except rolls lol It is a good day to reflect on what were thankful for but shouldnt we do that everyday? I am SO thankful for SO many things! We did have a nice relaxing day! We didnt evem get dressed until 11:30 :) We took our fam pics for our cmas card and i love it!! Thank you to Taras tripod! Then we went to my moms and I helped her with the rest of dinner and the boys played wii then the feast and boy was it a feast!! Today is the first black friday i am not participating in and im so sad :( alas im at work savin a life lol! Tomorrow is my mans bday! The big 32 haha! We are meeting up with friends tomorrow night to go bowling and dinner, it sounds fun!! Well as I end this post the boys are so much better heir hearts are better and im so thankful!

Monday?

It seems like tuesday probably because I worked yesterday! Saturday I went to a scrapbooking party and loved it! I started on Parkers, and I will do each boy a month! I am only doing until 5 yrs old in the first album. It turned out so great, helps he was so sweet and cute!! Im not done yet, but its hard to pick! Parker loved it so thats all that mattered :)

Oh my sweet Patrick :( He asked me if his biological dad hates them so much that he had to have better kids? Insert tears and broken heart right here. So I told him he did it because he loved them so much and wanted dad to adopt them and be the dad he never could be! See even when I think were passed this were not :( We will have this forever!

Well Im going to close on that note :( please pray for my boys' hearts!

Family!

Ok so seriously my family is amazing! You know we have our ups and downs and of course the ones that wont talk to you, but when you need them they are so there! I really do have a great family and there is alot of us! 4 parents 6 brothers and sisters, spouses, kids and thats just immediate! Im just lucky...end of story :)

Only tuesday?

Last saturday was such a great day! We dropped the boys off at moms house and we went out for breakfast, then goodwill and at&t and out for lunch and walmart. We needed "alone" time like crazy and it was wonderful!!

I had received an email FULL of lies from my ex's wife. It proved what I have thought all along she is bipolar and needs medication for it STAT lol! We talked with the boys about the fact that their biological father had twin boys last week, we didnt want them to hear it from someone else. Their reactions actually taught me alot. They said that doesnt affect them at all and they have a great dad who would never do that to them. And you know what? Those boys are SO right! I guess I worried about it because I dont want my boys to hurt over this so called man, but guess what? They dont! So I dont now either! Patrick said all he remembers is being yelled at alot and Parker said he remembers beer, cigarettes and chewing tabacco, Patrick didnt even know his name! So as I have stressed about my boys hurting, I dont need to cause they said it best "our dad would never do that to us" oh thank you Lord for Don!

I started watching my friends kids yesterday for a couple weeks. Brandon is almost 3 and Sandra is 4 months. Im in love with that baby and want to keep her! The boys had fun with Brandon who is such a good boy!

Our anniversary is tomorrow. Not sure if were doing anything for it yet maybe this weekend? 9 years! Wow!!

My love

So next wednesday is my anniversary, 9 whole years! Wow! I think back on my life until I met Don and holy cow was it a mess! He saved me and my boys in so many ways! He saved the boys from a "dad" that wasnt a dad and showed them exactly what a dad is. He loves them boys so much, and they love him so much! When Patrick finally started talking it was Don that he called dad, because he knew in his heart that Don really was the best dad for him, i believe that! As soon as the adoption was complete Patrick called Don dad right away, Parker not so much but he was older. When Don took Parker to Home Depot with him one day and to lunch Parker called him dad and it just stuck with him :) The way they have all bonded it was meant to be! God doesnt make mistakes!

Now onto my life ugh! He saved me from a whole lot! It took years into our marriage for me to believe that I deserved him, or deserved to be treated right and loved! He spoils me rotten, and not just with things but himself, he gives me everything he has emotionally and physically. He works harder than any man I know and never complainsi Basically I have an amazing man. He has faults he is so not perfect but hes my perfect!