Exhaustion!

Man my butt is getting kicked! My iron is so low plus I think I am getting the head cold going around, Im just so drained! Tonight is leftovers so I dont have to do much lol! I made spaghetti with home made breadsticks and they taste just like Olive Garden, they were amazing! Of course I'm not suppose to eat them, but who cares lol they were worth it! Patrick has a basketball game tonight, soon enough he will be able to play! So this is my house today, and all the darn snow still!!

To say I'm sick of snow is an understatement! BUT, it did warm up to 49 yesterday, I almost died it was so warm! This weekend is just a relax weekend, besides going grocery shopping, which is expensive and not so fun now that I'm an adult and buying for 6 people! But thanks to Pinterest I have made so many new things, and the men love them! Tomorrow we have to go to Spokane to do Dialysis again, time for de-clotting meds, but on a good note, 3 of the 4 people were matches for a new kidney and they have chosen the person who will continue on with tests and be the donator. So were thinking March is when she will become a new person!! How awesome is that? How awesome is God!! Well thats all for me, I'm going to finish the bread sticks and go lay in bed and watch Twilight :)

Sleep eludes me!

I will be SO glad when my iron gets up to a normal level! When I went in my iron level was 16, thats really bad, no wonder I was pulling over on my way to Ephrata to rest lol its only a 55 minute drive and I couldnt do it! Im sure it doesnt help that I have not used my c-pap machine for a few months, ugh! I know I should and I will start back up after I get a new mask. Patrick has basketball tonight, sad he still cant play, only 3 more weeks! Yesterday Don took a blow torch and melted some of our ice and snow, now I have a sidwalk again!! I will be SO glad when it warms up, to at least 35! Well I am at -32 pounds! I have offically lost my Josh and Jared weight and the weight from our cruise lol! So its been 10 years, better late than never HA! Now I'm working on Parker and Patrick weight, ugh, ok that has been longer like 15.5 years haha! My friend Cindy brought over a bunch of new jeans for me! I only had 1 size of the current size I just got into! Holy cow! Its been 10 years since I have been in this size! I have failed a couple times this week when it comes to food, but thats ok I dont do it everyday or even every week, so I forgive myself :)

Calgon took me away!

Ok, actually my husband took me away lol! We had date night and it was SO needed! I have not seen the man in a week! He has been so busy at work, I guess when your the boss that happens. So he has been getting home around 9pm and I'm alreay out for the night. My dang iron is so low that it makes me exhausted all the time, so bedtimes are early lately. So after school I dropped the 3 boys off with my Mom for the weekend, and we picked up Don and headed to Spokane. Parker was going to the Sadie Hawkins dance with Alexy, they have to dress the same, he had SO much fun! Picked him up around 11pm got home around 1am, I am to old for that stuff lol! Meanwhile, Don and I had gone to Chilies for dinner, YUM! How I wanted a burger so badly, but alas, I had a grilled chicken salad, it was SO good, a bit spicy for this wimp but good! Had 5 glasses of water lol ok maybe really spicy. Then we walked around the mall before heading to Walmart to grad doggie food and cereal, the 2 things we always run out of in a house full of pigs! Then back to Liberty to pick them up and take Alexy home. It was a fun and much needed night. Thank you sweetie!! Today we are being lazy bums. Well Cassie did come over to visit so I did take a shower and brush my teeth ha! We also did have to run to the store to pick up pizza stuff so I can make them pizza for dinner, but before that Parker and I are making home-made pop tarts, thank you Pinterest!! Excited to see if it works and if the boys love them!! Tomorrow is Church, so I teach Jr High sunday school and childrens church, then home for laundry! I do miss my boys, but oh how quiet my house is!!

This week!

My poor Patrick! He does not need surgery, yay!!! But he is in a cast for 3 weeks where hopefully he can finish out basketball season! He is ready!

I got my hair done. It was suppose to be a reward for losing 30 pounds, but alas, I only lost 28.6 lol but I did it anyway because 28 pounds is a lot! I have had a stressful week in the weight department. I have bounced between 28 and 29 pounds all week, its very discouraging. But I think I snaped out of it lol I was drinking sugar free Chai teas, and come to find out they are not sugar free ha! So hence why I have not been able to get under 29 pounds! I hate that things say sugar free even though they are not! Jared was in a foul mood this morning, always makes life rough when he is! Hopefully he comes home all better! Tonight I have a school board meeting, I really enjoy being on the school board and of course I rock on it haha! Friday Parker is going to the Sadie Hawkins dance at the girlfriends school, he is so excited! So thank you to my mom for taking the 3 other boys so we can drive to Liberty and drop him off, so were going out for dinner and a movie while Parker is dancing the night away!

Parker and Alexy :)

AAHHH!

Non school days tends to stress me out! The boys have spent to much time together so by Monday they are all in rare form. Ya know, i know they are such great boys, but oh man there are days I wonder if I will survive!Tonight is for sure a night they go to bed EARLY! This weekend my Sissy came over with the girls, so Saturday Tara, Me and my mom went to Spokane and had lunch and did the mall. SO much fun! The older kids went to the movies with Parkers girlfriend. Good times had by all. Don has been working on our bathroom upstairs...finally!! We got a stand up shower for it, so he did the plumbing for it, just need a floor, mud, sand and put the toilet and sink back in! Then, I dont have to go downstairs, through the kitchen through the laundry room into the bathroom lol! The weight loss is still going, tonight I had 2 cookies, not good for someone not eating sugar ha! But tomorrow is a new day so I actually didnt stress about it much, still drank 120 ounces of water so Im doing good! Tomorrow is my hair appt, I cannot wait for it! I have not had my hair done for SO long, and I mean like 6 months or so, my grow out is awful! Its my month to teach Jr high sunday school, I do enjoy it, the kids are so great! After the lesson we always play hangman with only words from the Bible, some of them are crazy long words that you cant even pronounce! Patrick broke his finger and his growth plate last week! So he has an appt with the surgeon tomorrow, ugh, hoping he doesnt need surgery! Poor Patrick, he found out the day of his first basketball game! Had to stop football cause of a concusion, then he broke his ankle and toe and now this! He has had a rough 6 months! Hes so strong though and rarely complains! Well I'm going to put my boys in bed, woohoo!!

Weight Loss

Lets face it, losing weight sucks ass! Its the hardest thing I have ever had to do, even get a divorce lol! I have struggles since I had Parker, so ya almost 16 years! I have lost some, gained some, but mostly stayed the damn same! For me the hardest thing was thinking I could do it. I have failed at SO many things, that every time I failed at a diet I would say "your a failure, your going to be fat forever". I honestly believed I would be! That makes me feel awful! I always feel like a failure about something, my mothering skills, my wifey skills and especially my weight. But guess what? Im NOT a failure! Do you know how hard it is to believe that? I have Don telling me all the time how beautiful I am, how much he believes in and he knows I can do it, and you know what? I CAN! I'm down 29 pounds so far! I have about 50 more to go, but who cares lol I'm down 29! It has been so very difficult. I enjoy water so that part is easy, I am not a fan of exercising at all! My weakness is cereal, mac and cheese and diet pepsi. Salad is ok, but mac n cheese is so much better ha! I have given up so many times, quit like the quiter I was, not anymore! Even now, I still slip and eat something I shouldnt and guess what I do? I chalk it up to normal human behavior and I jump right back in! Here is a pic of me before and one around Christmas, I have since lost 14 pounds!!

STAY STRONG! You can DO IT!!

Only tuesday?

This week is dragging and it just started! But I'm happy to report the boys are SO much better this week, last week almost sent me over the edge I do thank the Lord for prozac! I started my diet back up, so far I have lost 11.2 pounds in a week, yay me! Don is down 11, darn I have to beat him ha! I'm in clothes I have not worn for so long I hope they are not out of style! But I feel better and thats all that matters I suppose. Now if I could just get back to wearing my c-pap then all would be swell. I do hate that thing lol! Sunday I went with Kim to deliver Alyssa back to Oregon, boo! We miss her already! Tomorrow is our HUGE compatibility test with Lois, I do all the blood work then we mail it out and start praying! This test determines if 1 of the 4 people are an absolute match! Don is busy at work ;( I do miss him when he is gone, I guess thats a good thing! I actually cleaned out ALL of my kitchen cupboards! And thats a lot my kitchen is big! Pinterest is going to be the death of me! Although I have found a bunch new recipes and the boys love em so far! Thats always a bonus!

Snow days!

I am SICK OF SNOW!! Oh to be young again and actually love snow. I remember school closures, snowmen and of course snowball fights, but I'm over it! The boys have only had 1 snow day in 2 years! Guess we are just use to it over here.

This is my real family! We had no clue the boys were doing this behind our backs, I guess its a glimpse of the teenage years ha!

What a day!

It has been such a stressful day! My youngest can frustrate me and send me into a mood faster than anyone! He is very OCD and impatient. If his pants are to long he wont wear them, if they dont tie he wont wear them, he will only wear fuzzy socks, his shirts and coats cannot go past his wrist or I have to roll them up, his shoes have to be double knotted or he will freak out! I have just learned to accept this, its a battle Im not going to fight, so I buy pants and my mom puts elastic in them so they tie, you just gotta do what ya gotta do! I could write for hours how these men send me over the limit, but I can also write about how they make me smile. No matter how much they fight, they always play with each other, no matter how annoyed Parker gets with Jared he always tickles and wrestles him and plays video games with him. They really are fabulous boys and I wish I didnt take them for granid. One day they wont be here, they will be off doing their own thing, and that makes me SO sad to think about. Although I know its a good thing, they are my babies and I have devoted my whole life to them. I get up in the morning because of them, I try to be the best person ever because of them, I take prozac because of them ha! I cook for them, clean for them, cuddle them, kiss them, hug them, make sure they have clean teeth and clean bodies, that their clothes fit and that they know how much I love them, bigger than the universe!

Happy New Year!

I cannot believe its 2013! Where did this year go? I still cant believe it! We had a great year and I am SO excited for this new year! A lot of changes are coming and I hope I'm ready! Lets see, my boss will probably be getting her new kidney next month, which is so awesome, yet sad for me. I am so use to going to her house every morning, hooking her up and visiting and watching shows with her. We watched all 10 seasons of Friends, now we are onto NCIS, good times! I have made a pretty big decision to go back to school, something that terrifies me yet makes me excited! I am going to be a labor and delivery nurse, hopefully! Our oldest will be getting his permit this month, HIS PERMIT! I can hardly believe that! Why is our babies growing up so fast? I have already rented the hall for his graduation :( It makes my heart so sad that one day sooner than later he will be off to college, hopefully the Art institute of Seattle and then there will just be 3! This Thanksgiving we will be going to Forks to have Thanksgiving with my family up there. I am SO excited! We are staying 4 days and I am going to learn my Aunts recipes and hang out with my cousins and just enjoy life! November cant come soon enough! I have been doing pretty good at weight loss, down 23 pounds and I start back up tomorrow. Hoping to weigh what I did when I met Don, so Im closer than I was lol! We are getting hit with snow and it sucks! The first day or two its beautiful, not so much anymore, over it!! Well thats about it for now, I promise to update more than once a year!!!