This man!

So, my husband has always supported me and made sure I knew how beautiful and amazing I feel. Every morning I get a text that says how beautiful and sexy I am and how lucky he is to have me as his wife. Even when we first got married and I was SO insecure and asked him every day if he was going to leave me, for about 4 years I did this! He never got frustrated with me just hugged me and told me he loved me. So when I decided to get this surgery he was very supportive and although he was scared out of his mind he let me go, and now that I actually am liking myself and the way I look I cant even tell you what that has done for our marriage. I never really realized that my insecurity and self hating was such a big part of our marriage. We have always had such a great marriage but this was always looming over my head. So now, its a whole new level for me, for us I guess! He is such an amazing man and I am SO lucky to call him MY husband!!!!

The new me!

So yesterday was my 38th birthday! And let me tell you I have never felt better!! I'm sure losing 60 pounds so far helps ha! Yesterday was such a nice relaxing day! My BFF cooked us dinner and my men gave me endless hugs and kisses, a gift card to Maurices to shop yay and a new toaster lol that's what I wanted! Parker bought me the Frozen soundtrack :) Love that movie so much! Patrick won me a Cincinnati Bengals stuffed animal out of the grab machine, so sweet of them! I don't think I've ever been in such a great place, I have been off my anti depressants and my C-Pap machine! Well enough about me lol

9 more Fridays until Christmas! When did that happen? I am SO excited!! I told Don I am decorating next month ha! He was so excited LOL

Last week of flag football, plus a school board meeting for me. Patricks knee is getting better each day, thank goodness! Jared has less than a week of his splint, then buddy tape his fingers for 4 weeks and physical therapy, poor baby boy :( The weather has been pretty nice, cold in the morning like 40's but its been getting up to 70 during the day, that will not last long, pretty sure this week is in the 60's with lots of rain BOO! They say were suppose to have a warmer dry winter, which I love but we need snow, how else will our new grass grow? We'll see what happens.

My mom made me a mini carrot cake cupcake with no frosting, my first sugar since May, oh man was it AMAZING! Sunday is my day to have a small treat, I cant deprive myself anymore ha!

Fall!

I am not a fan of fall! Cold,wind and rain? No thanks! This summer went super fast. Patrick passed drivers ed and will get his license in June! How is that even possible? Parker will be 18 in July! What?? This mama is not prepared for senior year at all! Its football season so naturally Patrick had to get hurt! Helmet to the knee to many times and he has a bone bruise, its pretty painful but he is such a trooper! Jareds finger got dislocated when he was wrestling with his brother, now its in a splint. So many ER bills lol but we met our $4800. Deductible! Woohoo!

Well onto me lol I had my surgery june 2nd and im down 57 pounds! I feel amazing! Still off sugar which has been difficult this week for some reason, probably because its fall and what do I do in the fall? Bake ugh! Everyone has been so amazing and supportive especially my husband. Every single morning I fet a text about how proud he is and how amazing I look, then of course about 10 more throughout the day lol he is fantastic, all my men are. They have been wonderful not eating things in front of me that might tempt me oh I love them!they are at home coming tonight. Pat went with his girlfriend and Parker went with one of his best friends, they go every year. Parker is in a relationship with freedom as he puts it HA! We have flaf football every Saturday and of course Jaredbis out boo! Today Josh scored 4 touchdowns thats Jareds average each game, they are amazing! We are pretty lucky!!